Chapter 98: [Beauty Above All] A Diary
Bai Cha chuckled softly.
Of course, it was a guess.
Although she hadn’t specifically analyzed the truthfulness of his words, based on the earlier comment that he wasn’t a good person, his usual methods or skills should be consistent.
Zheng Yue said that the moment he saw her, he felt she could clear the game, so he followed her.
Rather than her being able to clear the game, it was more like by following her, Zheng Yue himself could clear it.
Given that he said his skill was related to luck, and he said his luck was very good and he could use it three times to judge the direction to clear the game, the false elements in this statement were much greater than in other parts.
After all, what kind of top-tier naive person would directly reveal their skill upon meeting someone?
If he were an F or E-level player, this might be possible.
If he hadn’t directly leaped levels like her, leveling up quickly, climbing through one instance after another, would he have relied on this naive persona?
Of course, unless his luck was truly that good, so this was also a clever point on his part.
Because he said he was a very lucky person.
Luck was a very mysterious thing, and it could explain many things.
Therefore, the other party’s skill was nothing more than two possibilities. One was that he could take the other person’s luck as his own, a kind of plunder, in which case the other person would have terrible luck and he would naturally clear the game luckily.
The other was that as long as he bound himself to someone, he could transfer his bad luck to the other person at a critical moment, making the other person a scapegoat.
These two were actually quite similar.
If it was the former, ha, her luck, did he dare to take it?
However, she didn’t explain any of this to the comments.
After rummaging around again, she finally finished searching all the things in the room and only found a diary.
Bai Cha sat on the bed and opened the diary under the dim light.
This diary recorded the growth of a girl.
The reason for using “a girl” to describe it was because the time in the diary didn’t match her persona’s age.
The age of her life was directly based on her own, but this wasn’t.
This was also a record of a girl growing from six to twenty years old.
The diary wasn’t written every day, mainly when something happened.
[April 2, 2004.
Thursday.
Cloudy.
Unhappy, I’m very unhappy today. Am I really that ugly?
Today, the boy at the same desk looked at me with a disgusted gaze. He kept a very disdainful distance from me and said, you’re so dirty.
I’m not dirty, my skin is just a bit darker. I don’t understand why many boys also have dark skin, but they won’t be ridiculed, but I will be disliked?
They always bully me.
Today is also my sixth birthday, I’m not happy at all.]
[November 5, 2004.
Thursday.
Cloudy.
I cried in front of the mirror for a long time today. I have a new deskmate, a girl. She’s so fair, so beautiful… and me, so dark and ugly… I also want to become beautiful…]
[June 1, 2005.
Thursday.
Cloudy.
Today is Children’s Day. Mom bought me new clothes, a yellow dress. I happily wore it to school and was laughed at by them. They said the ugliest girl was even wearing a dress, shameless…
But… just because someone is ugly, they’re not allowed to wear a dress?]
[May 21, 2006.
Thursday.
Cloudy.
Today, my deskmates who I’ve been playing with for several years told me not to play with them anymore. They were all pretending to play with me and actually hated me. Because playing with me was too embarrassing and they would be laughed at.
I don’t know how I got home, I’m very sad.
I don’t understand, am I really that ugly?]
Bai Cha flipped through a few pages and found that they were all Thursdays and cloudy days.
Basically, the diary was about a girl’s experience of appearance discrimination from childhood to adulthood.
When she was young and encountered discrimination, although she would be sad and in pain, she could still question it.
However, when she started to have a crush on a boy in adolescence, she completely became extremely disgusted with herself amidst the constant ridicule.
[April 2, 2011.
Thursday.
Cloudy.
Today is my birthday, and I also received a gift. I’m very happy, maybe things are really different.
But what makes me unhappy is that the boy I like has someone he likes.
I don’t dare to tell him I like him because I know I’m not worthy either. The girl he likes is fair-skinned and thin, with a cheerful and lively personality. She has many friends, and many people like her. She’s like a shining person, and so is he.
I really want to tell him that I’m very grateful to him. He’s the only one who has ever given me a sincere smile and said good morning to me.
Later, when I found out that we were in the same school and the same class, I was so happy. I even sat in the front row in front of him.
I really like him so much, I really want to tell him.
But… I’m not worthy… I’m not worthy…
Ugly people are not worthy of being in love.]
[October 28, 2012.
Thursday.
Cloudy.
She rejected him.
When I heard the news, I was both happy and angry.
He’s so good-looking, so sunny, why wouldn’t she like him?
But… it’s great that they didn’t get together…
But too many people like him. After that girl rejected him, another tall and beautiful girl in the class immediately started pursuing him.
They are all so beautiful. They are tall, fair-skinned, and good-looking. Many people like them. Why doesn’t anyone like me? Ugly people don’t deserve to have someone they like. I know, but I’m still very sad.]
[August 4, 2013.
Thursday.
Cloudy.
Went out to play with some friends today and found that there were many other classmates.
He was there too.
We went boating on the lake together. The boys pedaled the boats, and the girls sat on the other side.
A boy asked our weight. I said I was exactly 100 jin (Approx. 50kg).
He said in a very exaggerated tone, you actually weigh 100 jin? How can you be so heavy? Are you a pig?
Everyone around laughed.
At that moment, I really wanted to jump off the boat.
Especially since he also looked over, with a smile in his eyes.
Is 100 jin very heavy?
I went home and asked my mom. My mom said that at 163 cm tall, 100 jin was too heavy and told me to lose weight.
I want to lose weight, I must lose weight!!]
[May 22, 2013.
Thursday.
Cloudy.
Why? Why why why why?
I don’t understand why she had to tell everyone about my crush on him? How could she do that? I treated her as a friend. I told her that no one could know about this, so why did she tell?
Now many people know, and he knows too. His friends said to me in a teasing tone that his chair was broken, and if I liked him, I should switch chairs with him. I didn’t say anything, and they switched the chairs. That chair was indeed broken. But more than the chair, I felt like I had been stripped naked and put there.
Is it wrong to like someone? Just because I’m not good-looking, do I not even have the right to like someone else?
Why does everyone have to look at me like that!
I dare not look at him again.]
[September 2, 2014.
Tuesday.
Sunny.
I’m so happy today. Maybe… maybe it’s enough for me to just look at him from afar. I’m very content.]
Bai Cha paused slightly when she flipped to this page. Tuesday, sunny.
So the cloudy or sunny weather was indeed marked based on her mood?
Then all the Thursdays might just be because she hated Thursdays?
And there were no names mentioned from beginning to end.
Whose diary was this?
